First of all: HOW DARE YOU. How dare you come into my life, into my safe place and shred me like this without so much as dinner first? I should have know Crossan would do this to me again since every single one of her books takes a piece of my soul with it in the end. This left me with so many e m o t i o n s that I was not right for days. DAYS. Maybe at some point I’ll be able to read a Crossan book without closing the cover with tears streaming down my face.
There are a LOT of trigger warnings for this so be warned: Abuse (mental & verbal), dementia, homelessness, and more.
This was a super quick read as it was written in beautiful and haunting in verse that Crossan has been able to master. The words seem to simply float off of the page and will wrap themselves around you. This heart breaking story will be over before you know it.
The main character, Allison (or Allie), was a deeply complex and very flawed character that had my attention from the moment she came onto the page. She had gone through so much in her young years that nobody should ever, ever have to endure. She was trying to get away from her abusive father when she accidentally ends up at the house of an old lady (Marla) who was suffering from dementia. This old lady believes Allie was her childhood friend named “Toffee”. While spending time with Marla, Allie starts to build a relationship with her and the truth of everything in both of their pasts come to light. They both needed each other in ways they never imagined. Allie was a powerful, brave, fractured character that I immediately connected with her. I wanted nothing more than to reach out and hug her. I wanted to take her into my home, wrap her in a blanket, and assure her that everything would be alright. I wanted to be friends with her in real life so bad because I felt her pain on every level. The relationship she built with Marla was a thing of legends. It was so beautifully written and laid out that there really was no other way this story could have been told. It was masterful, plain and simple.
I won’t give away anything else that happens but please believe me when I say this is a Crossan book you MUST HAVE in your library, in your life. I am saddened to say that I did not hear readers/bloggers talking about this before it became available from my library. I borrowed it because I’ve fallen in love with everything Crossan has written and I knew I needed to experience this. You need to read it if you have not already. I don’t believe you’ll be disappointed.