First and foremost: TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, self-harm, and depression.
I bought this book while walking through a store, drawn to the cover. I had my feels destroyed by LaCour in previous books so I felt I was ready to be hurt again. I had no idea what I was in store for.
Short recap: Caitlin and Ingrid have been friends for what feels like forever. Ingrid kept some pretty serious and huge secrets from Caitlin during their friendship. Big secrets, thoughts, and feelings that lead to her committing suicide. Caitlin found herself alone with only Ingrid’s journal and illustrations. This prompts Caitlin to start a journey that leads to self discovery, hidden secrets, and some type of colsure.
This was a hauntingly beautiful story. It was not easy to read for obvious reasons. Several times I had to set the book down and walk away. I know this will not be everyone’s cup of tea but it was still a powerful read. LaCour tackled some pretty tough topics and she did it with grace. I applaud her for not shying away from this topic. I don’t want to say it the type of story that is necessary in YA but it certainly has its place. It is also one that, handled correctly, can do so much more good than harm.
I am not sure how to properly say how much I enjoyed the story as it is more character-driven than plot-driven. Caitlin was a deeply flawed character and that made her more believable and realistic. I felt for her as she went through her journey with Ingrid’s notebook. I also wanted her to be able to find some sort of peace.
The writing style itself was what stood out the most to me. LaCour has some type of magic she weaved into her words. Everything flowed and felt natural. I quickly turned pages, engrossed in the story, and before I knew it I was done with the story. I ended this with tears in my eyes and a piece of my heart missing. My feels still are not right.
If you have not read this yet, please give it a chance.